Here comes the last day of July...

There is still 2 more month, then I'll finish this sem.

Is this a good new or a bad one?

I don't know.

What I know is this sem is a tough sem.

I'm tired about the assignments and reports.

And I couldn't find a way to release my pressure.

The much I work on assignments,

I feel weaker and weaker.

One day I'll crazy...

because of assignments.

I went to aunt house to have dinner today.

I feel better after chit-chatting with her.

Maybe that's the way I can relax.

Not that I say that my friends and housemtes didn't talk with me.

It's just that... everything seems to get related with assignments.

That is torturing and tired.

Just... forget about it... at least for a while.

Is that so hard?

What I need is hear lesser,

and think lesser about assignments.

I feel like going back to Klang.

Then I can have a relax weekend.

With watching TV, sleeping,

and so on.

*Sigh*

Really hope holiday come soon.

Few days of day dreaming~

I know, this is not suitable time.

But I can't help it,

this is the way I release my stress.

But the cons are I couldn't be concerntrate to what people said,

that is what I feel sorry.

And I can't really complete my work with

full attention.

Haiz...

And I stupidly download a lots of thing.

Haiz...

I'm so not me.

Where am I?

Come back lar...

I'm living in my own world?

Or the world don't want me?

Sick...

I'm sick.

Ya, I'm sick.

My gosh...

Headache, soar throat, running nose.

Haiz...

Really dizzy.

Crazy about taking photos and talking...

I think I'm crazy, and act really abnormal recently.

I keep taking photos,

of course not only myself,

majority other people.

I keep talking and insulting people,

I usually wont' talk so much about people,

but recently I do.

Is it my stress?

Makes me feel like none of the things in the world is good

and worth to be treasure?

I keep thinking of bad things.

I think I'm totally indulge in critizing people.

I must be crazy.

I'm so cruel and ''sam pat''.

Furthermore,

now my life is opposite.

When people sleep, I do work;

People study, I sleep.

My gosh,

I try very hard to adjust,

but it's damn hard!

OMG...

Try to make myself tired today,

and sleep earlier.

My life is full of conflicts...

Ok, first of all.

Yall know I study advertising, right?

My life should be interesting and creative.

But, I'm not.

I don't know why. (Please don't ask me)

I feel tired and dull.

The assignments, the deadlines,the reports...

These really makes me feel like i'm going to die the next minute.

Is there any way to solve this?

At least not feeling soooo down.

Especially after the ball night deco,

after this crowded day.

I feel very empty.

Emptier than ever...

Oh my~

These days is really tiring...

doing the UTAR ball night deco.

But, I had great days with the team.

I will never forget these days.

I enjoy!

Days with crazy people in Berjaya Times Square Hotel.

Nice memory~

-Leslie, VeRon, George, WanHao, Ben, JO- in the room

We camwhoring,

chit-chating,

gossiping,

crapping,

eating puddings,

shopping,

take photostickers....

and more.

Really having a lot of fun.

Well, the day was not only having fun,

and also sweat and blood.

We did the deco with loads of effort,

the kind of teamwork is unbelievable,

everyone is sharing the idea,

discussing how to make things better,

solving problems together.

We really understand each other much after this event,

our friendship is also growing fast.

All of us did the deco till late night,

and sleep for only 2 hrs.

But after the deco has done,

we really feel contented,

and of course excited.

I hope we can do things better in the coming

fashion night 2008 by ACS.

As we get experience.

Right, guys?

-The deco team and the stage-

Depress...

I feel really depress.
I don't know why.
I was having bad luck since yesterday.
Today,
I totally forgot my class;
When I having my lunch, bird shit falling from the air;
A ladle of water pour on my shoes;
I wait for taxi for very long time;
NOW, I want to watch movie,
no one going with me.
Haiz.
I just want to relax a bit,
just want to be happy a bit,
just want to change my luck,
just want to have mood to continue all those assignments,
just want to have a new start.
Am I wrong??
Huh??? Am I wrong.
I just don't understand.
Why am I always alone?
Or I have to say,
Why am I feel so alone.
Like no one in this world knows me,
or understands me.
What I need may be is just only caring.
Or maybe "Are you ok?"
Why is this so difficult?
*Sigh*
I'm tired to live.
To survive is difficult.
Hey people,
I'm not that tough as all of you think.
Can't you all just comfort me?
I really can't imagine how am I going to continue my study,
continue my life.
I just couldn't cheer up.
My heart is crying so loud,
can't all of you hear it, people?

I feel sooo... empty...

This is a busy week,
have a lot of assignments have to pass up.
But,
I don't have the mood to do anything.
I'm EMPTY.
I don't know why.
Just don't have the mood to do anything.
Tommorrow is my poitalism deadline.
But till now,
I haven't finish.
Still pause at what I've done few days ago.
When I take the brush,
I feel like I vomitting.
I'm such a loser.
Why do my expectation have to be so high,
this makes myself feeling so bad.
Yet, I still can't do it simply.
This is not my style.
Haish...
Tired...
Feel like sleeping forever.
I don't want to wake up!
Why life have to be so tiring?
I need to be alone.
I need to rest.
I think that I'm totally out of balance.
Everything makes me feel bad.
Gosh... I'm a freak.

I can't sleep...

It's 5 am already...
I can't sleep.
I have spent my whole night at McD drawing.
Well, I've doing it for 5 hours,
but still not 1/3 of it.
My gosh.
Can't imagine how many time I have to spend on the work.


I'm going back to Klang this weekend,
finally,
but I still have a lots of assignments await me.
How?
Haiz...
I don't plan of going back this week,
as usual,
but my some sort of a godsister is getting married.
So,
I have to go back.
I know I'm annoying of reporting how busy I am.
But really,
I can't have an ordinary routine
because of all the assignments.
I just don't understand why there are some people
goyang-ing their butts while in Uni.
But mine?
I don't even have time to sleep.
This is sooo... contrasting.
Funny huh?
I heard people said that
my course is the most difficult course in my faculty.
Is that so?
I believe it is.
Because I saw some other courses people
shaking here and there.
Sorry, if you aren't.
I found out that being boycotted in the class is sooo freaky.
OK, first of all,
I have to clarify,
I'm not hard to communicate with,
I don't know why,
I just can't get along with them.
Maybe, I'm too freaky,
which I don't think so.
Or maybe we really don't share the common things.
I don't mind.
Ok, maybe a bit.
Back to the story,
The more or obvious they boycotted me,
I feel like doing everything better and better,
and even the best in the class.
This maybe is a competition,
or maybe just to let me feel that,
'' That's the different between us.''
Haha,
I think this might be the reason I am being eliminated too.
Well, let it be.

It's a bad day

Well, I have done my public speaking today.
It was f*cking bad.
I lost my time control,
so that my marks for conclusion and so on
are gone. GONE!
Why is this happening?
I happen to be one of the high score in our class
last presentation.
But now, I think that I'll be the most terrible one.
Haiz...
How?
No how... Wait for my death, coming soon.
OK, forget about it.
Today's ACS art class is quite fun though.
I learn quite lots of thing---- shading on figure.
Well, I've learn that before when I was in high school.
But with the explaination of teacher,
I draw shit.
But Mr. CK taught us stoday,
it was like easier,
and you will really know the structure of one's face.
Hehe. I was like a bit bias, huh?
Wahaha!
We haven't do the pratical yet,
it's next week,
looking forward to it.
Hope I really can draw a figure
that really like a human,
but not shit.
God bless me for the rest of the week,
I'll be very very very busy.
Plus, I just started a lil part of my pointalism.
Oh... I'm not even sure if i can finish it on time.
Bless everyone,
but more on me.
Hahaha!!!

Back to the normal...

After the tiny mini holiday.
Everything come back to the normal.
I start my poitalism,
public speaking presentation,
E-commerce presentation.
Later, there's multimedia report,
moral report.
OK, I'm not doing the moral, maybe,
my part is to print it.
Because my BM sucks.
But still, there is still a lot of things to do.
Life went tough recently.
Uncountable assignments,
countable money.
I am affraid I can't go through this month...
Everyday mee hoon, maggie, mee hoon, maggie.
So sien.
What i afford to buy it's only veggie.
Yet, this might be a good thing to my diet too.
I can diet.
Haha...hee...hee...
Just to act optimistic.
And telling myself all this is OK.
Is there any part time job??
That don't need particular time.
Then i can earn some pocket money.

I was like having a vacation today...

Well,
not supposed to be a holiday.
But,
the laziness of mine suddenly explode.
So,
except for going to uni for lecture today.
I've done nothing.
I'm very sorry to say that.
I feel guilty to my family.
Ya, I'm busy.
But, I did nothing today.
Arhhh...
Hate myself to be like this.
But i really really lazy,
and does not feel like doing my assignments.
I've tried,
but can't concerntrate.
Sorry for myself.
Guilty~ T.T
Ok,
for a better tommorow,
got to sleep now.
^^

What a uni life...

Passed up Media Planning and E-commerce report.
Hurray!
I finally can sleep longer!
Haha, I slept till 2pm today,
Whoooo!
Yaya, I know that's freaky long.
But I haven't slept for so long for a very long time.
Ooooo.... I feel so contented~
OK, this is just for one day.
Because, I still have a lot of things to do.
My assignments will never end.
It's impossible to end...=.=
Like pointalism.
That crazy lecturer,
gave us an pointalism artwork,
and want us to imitate it.
It's A4 size, and there's a lot of things inside.

Yeah~ this is that god damn artwork!
I left a week to finish it.
Mamamia...
Pointalism with poster colour...
Haiz...
OH! I have a presentation on next wedneday.
About a ad I found.
Hell knows why I like that ad,
but can't find 4 points to say.
Yet, E-commerce also have presentation.
Bla bla bla...
My assignments will never end...
Long live JO!

10 reasons why I'm a freak

1. I'm very very lazy in some way
2. I haven't been to clubbing,
although i'm already 20, not even a bar
3. I like to live in fantasy
4. I go to bed really really late,
so you'll always see me hanging online
5. I do things according to my feeling,
in a bad way of saying it is~ moody
6. I didn't go back to my home for 1 month,
while i only needed 30 mins.
7. I wash my face a lot, I don't know why,
I just can't help it!
8. I have high expectation of myself,
though this make me almost die,
I still working on and on. May be till the day i can't breath.
9. I can't control my madness,
i've tried, but can't...
Well, still looking for solution.
10. I think a lot, a lot, a lot,
way~ a lot that you can imagine.

Finally finish the DAMN colour studies

At last... finished!
*tears*
I wanted a ''good effort'' firstly,
but now i think not being late and redo the work
is definately good enough.
Because...
I DON'T HAVE THE DAMN TIME!
I have plenty of deadlines this week.
God ar...
You kidding me o?
I'm damn tired.
For 'your' sake,
please lar don' t do this ever again.
I know advertising is challenging,
but now i'm doing things like the supers.
I'm just an ordinary people, OK?
K, forget about it.
I know that is useless,
all I need is a way to express my feelings.
By the way, I have to go to IKEA tommorow,
to find the bottles i need in another colour studies assignment.
Ok, that was just in passing,
actually, our dentist (downstaires neighbour)
is painting the stairs,
so, we have to go back after 12 hours,
from morning 8 to night 8 pm.
As my class till 3pm,
me and veRon plan to take our monthly photostickers
and looking for the bottle.
Hee Hee XP
Yesterday went to my uncle's
to have a gathering.
I ate a lot of good food. *^^*
I have not been eating good food for an extremely long time.
I really really did enjoy them yesterday.
Whoa hoho. ^0^
Yet, I have not been going home for 3 or 4 weeks.
Miss my parents and sister a lot
(which I don't want to admit it).
I felt that there's an estrangement between us.
Is this only what I think?
Or they feel it too?
Well...
there is always a related things between us,
right?
OK, I have to go to bed,
that's all for today.
Hehe, this is a long one anyway.