So lost...

I was wondering and thinking this question of few days.
"Am I suitable for this course?"
"Do I belong here?"
"Am I creative enough?"
"Do I choose a right course?"
Ya, I know it is quite stupid to think about this
when I already finished half of the course.
But, I am really confuse that,
what kind of talent I have,
and what is my strong point.
I am not very creative,
do not know how to use softwares well,
not good in using words,
not very good in most of the things la.
I am too average,
this makes me confuse...
*sigh*

Overnight doing assignments yesterday...

Too tired to say a lot of things.
I was sleeping for 11 hours...
Because of the tiredness cause by the IA assignment.
This is the first time i at other's house because of assignment.
So weird...
but the teamwork satisfied me a lot. ^^
But I do not hope that this will be happening again.
It is torturing.
Now, I do not even know what I had written in the project!
Just can't imagine what marks will we have.
God bless us.
Till then.

Damn Tired...

I'm sorry that I always 'damn' things...
but i really do feel that...
What the heck I'm doing ar?
Go to do promote,
it is absolutely torturing,
when that thing is not necessarily to everyone.
Right?
Then, what for I'm selling those things in a pharmacy,
when everyone is walking here and there,
I lost 2 opportunities when I'm get rid of blocking people.
So balia!
I'll never do that again.
After this and the coming weekend,
I'll never do the job.
Shitty shit!
Some more with a low salary.
Balia!

Damn Happy~

Ya I know,
now my life is in a mess and rush,
but sometimes the sense of achievement makes people happy,
and stay motivated. ^^
Just like my psychology presentation today.
We actually knew we have to present yesterday,
so the members rush to the McD at midnight 12am.
Ridiculous huh? and we only discuss it for 2 hours,
but we did a lot of rehearsals today lar...
So the outcome is not bad.
Oo, allow me to be proud for a while,
not not bad, is very good and well done.
Commented by our tutor.
Wakaka.
The sadness that the other group chose the same restaurant with us
is all gone.
Because we got the best compliment. Yeah!
By the way, the tutor said that I'm the best presenter in our group.
Haha.
Ya, I know I'm showing off now.
But these really cheer me up.
On the other hand,
I'm doing a promote job at Guardian Pharmacy,
promoting ReNu Multiplus, contact lens solution.
Hard job... *sigh*
Have to memorize the information and the competitors,
bla bla bla... Gosh, it's a lot...
I doubt I can achieve the target of 20 pack (Buy 2 free 1) a day.
So that I can get commission.
I also doubt my own ability of promoting things la...
*sigh*
Hope I'll do well.
So that I can get away from the situation now,
NOT ENOUGH $$$$$.

Tired of being a person with lots of comments...

I know,
all the while I've been a person with lots of this and that,
and they think I'm easy to get angry, easy to think in a different side,
but what's the bad of having different people in a group?
There must be some advantages I'm being there right?
But I did not feel that,
because of their ignorance, and all.
I'm tired to be the so-call "different" person in the group.
So now I rather be the one that obeys them.
Why am I always facing problems between peer.
I really don't understand.
Actually is this really my fault?
I'm really tired to make things better,
because that brings me a lots of wound.

Busy still... but went Mid Valley half day...

Recently my gastric is not very good,
keep aching, and I don't know why.
Hope it will not worsen.
Because this period of time need a lot of energy,
to do assignments, to discuss assignment, and so on.
God bless me. ~.~
Yup, as i mention at the title,
I'm busy, but went Mid Valley half day,
and now I'm very tired.
It has been so long that I DID NOT buy anything
when I shop.
Recently really broke.
And my phone spoilt too.
Now I'm still waiting Dear December to come,
so that I have money to buy a phone.
As I don't have money,
today went Mid Valley for KZ (Kap Zai) session,
but there are none.
*Sigh*
So I went MPH for 2 hours,
read 2 books about design,
and looking for next year's diary.
I'm still considering which one to buy,
due to my financial problem,
I have to wait too.
As everyone know,
a nice diary is also not cheap.
While looking for diary,
I found 2 note books,
which is very simple and nice,
so I might buy them too.^^
In fact, it's 20+ bucks per one,
and it is quite thick.
Am I a big spender?
What if in the future I'm poor?
I'll die either because of overspending or over "gu hon".
Phew... hope everything and everything is fine...

The assignments are freaking me out!

The assignments are killing me!
Till when can I stop thinking about them?
I'm going to die soon.
Especially International Advertising,
yesterday just told us the content needed in the project,
then? Next week have to pass up already.
Who you think we are?
God ar?
I really clueless from the first class,
till now, there's a lot of question mark and helpless,
feel like crying. Wuu~
Recently the relationship between me and the group member
is very weird.
I hate that kind of feeling,
but I can't help it,
there's a gap between me and them.
I'm being left alone,
because of the thinking,
and so on.
It's not that I don't join them,
is the way they act,
they obviously want to avoid me,
so I was pretending to join,
and ask, ask, ask and ask.
But that was tiring,
I don't know why this is happening to me,
is this my fault?
but I've changed a lot,
I've been trying to be not too exaggerated,
not too sensitive,
not too straight,
not too everything,
but then what happened?
This kind of loneliness still at my side.
I've been thinking all this while,
is this happening because of me or what.
I just need friends and partner,
but why don't they just accept who I am,
but keep asking for more.
Why they have to see things this side,
but not the other side?
Why?