Thinking about my future,
and the next step I should take.
"If you were me, what would you do?"
The answers I got from my close friends are:
"Damn it! Just take the job!!!",
"At least you try, no doubt it's a chance, but once you let go of advertising, it's hard to get back.",
" What kinda life do you want? The normal one? or something slightly challenging and glamourous?",
" You wanna boyfriend or husband or not?? If you are staying there, you only can be a mistress!"
OK, this is what I get from my parents.
My dad said "Go to study 1st la, when I can still pay for you."
My mom said "Think of what you want, as long as you are happy."
The thing I struggle so much is that I want a life that will not bore me.
Staying with kids is talking kinda childishly, i think. I don't get to talk to people that are around my age or I should say ADULT, not non, but not enough.
Yea, I know dealing with adult is harder than kids, but I'm kinda tired and bored when I'm working alone.
Somewhere inside be begin to dissapear. The fashion-concern MOI, I still bought mags monthly, but the thing is I seldom read them anymore, I missed that a lot! I love mags and fashion, but I don't get to wear them in kindie! So what for I'm concern about the fashion?? I'm only wearing t-shirts and long pants (sometimes skirts) working in the kindie. The fun of dressing up everyday to work (OK, my intern was only 3 months, but I do have fun wearing different clothes everyday!), and the air-con are gone. Oh, and entertainment maybe. G-O-N-E, GONE!
I know this should not be the main point considering to take the job or not, but that is part of me already.
In the other hand, it's very hard to get a job nowadays. Plus, working in kindie saves me a lot of money, coz I have no need of paying my trasportation, food, accomodation... and criticizingly, attire. If I'm going to get an advertising job, then I'll spent all the salary I has to these...
As I said earlier, dealing with kids is easier, because they are naive, the worst they can be is jumping all around like a monkey, and talk back to you. But in the adult world, it's not like this. I know, I know. I'm quite a simple person that always trust people easily, and in the end kena. But what the heck, everybody kena before, right? There are bit*hs all around.
OK, I have to stop thinking about it for today. Pretty tired.
I hate to make decisions, and I'm bad at it.