Life without entertainment

I understand.
Why entertainment is important?
I finally know why is it so~ important.
It's a way to release stress,
and also to draw out from work and all the kiaugh.

I have been sick for 3 days,
and on leave for one and a half day,
all I wanted to do is rest.
The headache has been back for 1 week.
And if I'm not mistaken,
after entering uni,
I did not suffer headache as much/long like now.
I don't know why,
maybe it is a way to evade the stress or work or what.
It really do torture me.
But still I refuse to eat any panadol.

I like the environment,
but some people really can't get along.
There are less than 20 people in our office,
but still there are human relation problem.
The problem is,
they can't avoid talking or meeting,
because of the work.
I really feel that I'm lucky that I'm still studying,
I don't have to talk to those people I don't like,
and not even seeing them is ok.
How am I going to survive after graduate?

Recently I was thinking about my future,
I'm not that kind
who-willing-to stay-in-an-office-for-the-rest-of my-life
type of people,
but I am also not that kind of staying-up-late-to finish-my-work
type of people.
Anyhow,
this is life,
I have to choose either one which I don't like to choose.

Friends.
Is really an important peoples in life.
I can't imagine go on with my life without them.
Talking about friends,
I admit that I'm an incompetent friend.
Sorry for that.
I don't have the mood to listen when I am thinking,
writing or what.
And I'm sorry that I show "It's enough" "It's none of my business" or what on my face.
But things not only bother you,
but single of us.
Everyone have their difficulties,
I'm willing to listen,
but please don't over do it.
I am sorry if I show that face.

An article of raping recall my nasty memory.
I hate that.
But it keeps playing in my mind.
I know I have to forget it,
but it just doesn't go away.
The insecurity,
the anger,
and my stupidity.
What's going on with me?
I am supposed to forget about it,
and go on with my life.
I need to forget it.
Please let me forget it.
The feeling, the smell,
and the memory.
I'm just trying to go on with my life.

I am trying not to be so sentimental.
Please...
I just need to rest.

回想不堪往事

明明忘了。
却又因一篇报道，
想起了。
比起那女孩，
我的，
并不是什么大事，
只是很讨厌那感觉，
那又气，有恶心的往事。
该忘了。
是该忘了，
也想忘了。
但却忘不了。
它已被刻在心中了。
尽管朋友安慰，
还是心有余悸。
是该忘了。
真的该忘了。
不要再让我想起。
想忘了。

Am so busy...

Sorry to say that again,

but this is so unussual for everyday-blogger

to blog for twice a week,

or even once a week.

This is very abnormal,

I really feel bad.

But my time does not allow me to blog everyday nowadays.

Haiz...

Super sien.

There's been a fickle week.

From learning simple things,

doing "sap sui" job,

to learning lots of things,

and writing a script for live programme.

Huh?

Yeah... that was my first reaction too.

"What? I have to write it?"

Yeah... that's right,

I have to write it,

although it will be ammend after passing up,

but still I spent whole day writing 3 scripts.

And ta-da,

am here now blogging.

Haha.

I have no time for futher details of my working life.

So...

Chao~

^^

荒唐

夜深了,
但, 眼睛却合不上,
人生啊!
到底要用多少时间才可以了解?

在此刻,
只觉得很累。

到底有什么好累？
我也不知道。

难道长大了，
就该这么累，
就该活得那么荒唐？
一大堆有的没的。

谁会为谁而活？
到底，
自己还是自己。
一个人过，
一个人，
就是一个人，
没啥谁为谁。

人还是为了自己而活。

Working life

It has been a long time I did not blog.

Me busy working.

Wahaha.

Honestly,

I love the job,

although it is tiring,

and I finally understand why working adults like to hangout weekends.

Because weekdays they are busy with work!

From 9 a.m. to 6 p.m.

when you reach home it's already 7.30p.m.,

after a dinner, bath.

It's already time to sleep.

This is boring, right?

I don't like this kind of life,

but after graduate I have to spend the rest of my life working.

This is so~ not me.

I like my uni life,

which I can yamcha till late night,

I can skip my class just to "cheong K",

I can sleep till afternoon,

I can go shopping in weekdays, so I don't have to pack with people,

which I can play around and fool around.

I just love to be a student,

and love freedom so~ much.

I can't imagine that my future I have to stuck in a office for 9 hours,

and on bus for 3 hours,

and left a short night for myself and my friends.

This is so not me anymore.

Although I love my job now,

I really feel tired working whole day,

and I feel that I'm so childish in this office.

Everyone is older than me,

they are mature and steady.

And I'm idiotically childish,

and a fool that like to hop around.

Although these make me seems friendly,

do I really have to do these to be friendly?

Hmm...

I just don't understand.

Adults... what a word,

it's just a burden for me.

I just want to fly~

like a bird.

Sorry for not updating this blog recently.

Till then,

chao~

Started my intern

The 1st day was quite scary,
as I haven get used to the environment and the people.
But my senior is very friendly,
and willing to teach.
I'm happy to be there,
the only thing is...
I don't like phone calls,
I am always panic picking up the calls,
and don't know who I can look for,
or who they want to look for.
Plus, I'm really bad in remembering numbers,
so till now (2nd day) I still can't remember the extension numbers.
Haha.
Still, thanks to my seniors,
whom are really friendly,
and understand my situation.
Hehe.
Nothing much to do in the 1st day,
just taking time to fit in there,
and do some basic job.
Oh, did I mention I am in the Media and Business Department.
Although I am interested in Media planning and buying,
but I really don't have a clue.
Hehe...
It's really a big world out there.
Things I did yesterday:
(1) Create Power Point template: I actually not sure how to create, but still succeed ^^
(2) Newspaper cutting: cutting ads for the client
(3) PICKING UP PHONE CALLS! : horrible~
(4) Sat in on a meeting: It's quite boring, but I learned something. Thanks for the chance.

Ok, today.
Still the same, still trying to get used to the environment,
but I feel more relaxed compare to yesterday.
And not that scared of picking up the calls,
but still not very good in transferring the calls.
Hehe.
Had lunch with the colleague today,
whom from different departments.
It was quite fun,
but still felt that there's a gap.
Maybe the thinking,
and maybe the age (HAHA!).
And being invite to the COMPANY TRIP.
To A' Famosa.
Hehe.
Well, that's a chance to get close to them,
so I did not reject,
just wondering do I have to pay?
I'm poor now...
Anyway, working in a small company
have quite a amount of advantages,
which I know everyone in the 1st day,
and recognize everyone the 2nd day.
And able to get along with them shortly.
And it feels cozy there.
^^
Just feel that I'm lucky enough to work there.
Well, today I learned the realistic kind of media calculation,
which we learned some basic in Year 2,
and did a presentation slide,
lastly did the filing for the booking order.

Till now everything is still in control.
^^

I believe that this is a long post.
Hehe,
sorry if it is too boring.

Oh, I have to think what to wear for the next day,
this is quite bothering me.
Well the MD said casual but no sport shoes,
but I saw lots of them wearing it.
Hehe, weird.

OK, that's all.
Keep praying for me. ^^

Boyish~

Cut my hair this afternoon.
Trying a new hair stylist in KimMarie.
And I turn out to look boyish.
I doesn't expect this short,
but there will always an accident.
Right?

Well, this is the shortest I can accept.
In fact,
I'll always look good in short hair.
Wahaha.
Just kidding.
Somehow,
I'm a bit regretting cutting this hair,
because I look like a boy,
or maybe a bi or homo.
Gosh,
can't believe I'm saying this,
I'm not trying to discriminate them,
just LOOK ALIKE.
And will there be any miss understanding,
when I walk out?
Haha.

Ok,
I have to be more feminine since
I cut this hairstyle.