HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!

Happy New Year, peeps~~~
Woooooots! Finally a new year!!!!
Have a blast!!!
And hope everyones' dream comes true!!!!
Yeah~~~~

Merry Christmas~!

Yeah~ Finally Christmas~ But I was listening to Christmas carol since the beginning of December, the feeling of the Christmas has diminished. Haha!

6 days more to 2009~!

Runny nose

Yea... Since this afternoon. But I don't know what actually happened? I was just sleeping and sneezing... then... TADA~ FLU! It's killing me... feel that my nose will drop out every time I sneeze and wipe off the snivel... Gosh~! Help ah!

幻想与现实之间

从很久很久以前，我就很爱幻想。这算是好事还是坏事，我不清楚。不过幻想帮我度过很多寂寞、伤心的时间。或许，脱离现实，的确能让我开心吧！呵呵……别告诉我，你没有幻想过。或许，想你喜欢的人、喜欢的生活、喜欢的事……我呢……呵呵……秘密……
当结束幻想，回到现实。总是很多的遗憾、失望、伤感。为什么我没法活在幻想中？若能活在幻想中，我会很幸福吧？
可能，活在现实，就是让我了解，幻想世界有多么的好？这就是平衡。幻想与现实之间，总会有小小的幸福与失望。

Goose's Dream By Carnival (LeeJuck & Kim Dong Ryul)

I.. I had a dream.
Even if it was a shabby dream that was dumpped and tored.
But I've kept it deep inside my heart like a treasure.

Sometimes, somebody laughed at me behind my back.
I should stand it. I could stand it for the day.

*
You always said with anxiety.
"An empty dream is a poison.
This world has already fixed like a novel's ending.
It can't be back. This is a "reality".
Oh Yes, I, I have a dream. I believe the dream.
Watch at me please.
In front of the cold wall named "reality"(Destiny),
I can face it with full confidence.

Someday I'll over the wall.
I can fly high above the sky.
Even this heavy world can't chain me.
At the end of my life,
The day when I'll make a smile,
I hope it to be with you.

命

你们，相信命吗？最近，我和轩好像常常在想这回事。是因为我们太迷惘吗？还是我们已经到那个年龄啦？面相、手相、风水等等等…… 我都想知道，我想知道我的命。
我厚实的手，说我是个好命的人，虽然我不否认我是真得很好命，可是，是真的吗？有没有那个人可以告诉我，我现在为什么会这么懊恼？
曾经，也有人说，我将来的另一半是有钱又帅的，是真的吗？为什么他还不要出现呢？让我都觉得自己以后会不婚。
我额头上有两颗痣，大人们都说是聪明痣，可我，也没有很聪明啊！甚至有时还傻傻的、笨笨的。
到底是怎样嘛……
最近真的很想算命，想知道自己是怎样的人，将来会怎样？如果啊，这世界上真的有预言的话，多好啊！那么，我现在就不会那么的懊恼……

Ok... This is what I saw last friday when I was on the way to KL.
Interesting huh?
It look exactly like there's a tap in the sky... hahaha!!

These are my booties I told y'all yesterday~~~ Nice??
I like the dress with flowers the most~ Hehe...
But YX said I spent money on buying "Xiao Mei Mei"(Little girl)'s stuff.
Hng!! I don't think so lo... I'm just 21st what... What's wrong with that?
Plus all age wear T-shirt lar...
Don't care don't care...

Randomly random...

Yea... went shopping at Sungei Wang last Saturday.
It was weird stepping in after 2 years, although the structure is still there, but S.W really changes a lot. It was also a exciting and happy day there, because it has been such a long time I spent little amount of money to buy quite an amount of booty. Wakaka!! 6 tops, a pair of gladiator sandal and a belt~! Woots~ Happy~

Well, what I feel weird is that, people skip Christmas there. There are hundreds of shops there, but only one shop playing Christmas Carol!! Can you imagine? Most of them plays "balia" and "disco" CNY songs, which made me feel uncomfortable (Really hate that kind of songs; An interlude here, today I went night market, and they are playing "Hakka" version CNY songs, "Lemon Tree" CNY song, so stupid! Sigh... speechless...). Christmas carols sounds way better than CNY songs lar... Why people skipped Christmas? Christmas is such a wonderful festival. Don't you think so? My gosh! Stop making CNY stupid la!! Follow the tradition, people!!! I don't like "Hakka" CNY songs, neither do "disco" CNY songs and "lemon tree" CNY song!!! Grow up people!!!

Sigh...

Oh yea! One more incident! I read today's newspaper, an article regarding the culture of Nyonya and Baba... In the article, the columnist wrote that Parameswara also called Sultan Iskandar Shah!? I doubt that lar... but just to confirm I am right, I search the net... and Wikipedia said so... Parameswara = Sultan Iskandar Shah. Wth? It is not la... I think... Click here for Wikipedia Is it true? As I remember, he did nothing, except he founded Malacca... Saw that kancil jumping over a dog... And I thought Iskandar Shah is his posterity?? Well... whatever....

Money

Yea... today's topic is kinda boring, and common.

Recently I am so broke, that I couldn't even imagine what will happened to me the following days. There are so many things to let me spend money on this month! Sis is coming back from Taiwan, wanted her to buy me something, I have to pay. Carmen is having wed dinner on 20th of December, got to buy her pressie. I want to shop so badly!!! Can you imagine, the last time I shop is August!!?? Man! August!!! That was like few decades ago!

Earning money is also hard... weird timetable... how am I supposed to work part time? I need a job that I can do it at home, but high pay. Is that even possible? Gosh! Impossible! Seems like I really have to learn from Yin, create another blog, and put advertisement in it!! I'll be clicking it like crazy~! You will help me too, right? Hehehe...

In conclusion, MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, BUT EVERYTHING IS MONEY. And darn that.

How am I going to survive?

Not being down, just being honest to my life. I'm so confused, and even regretting taking advertising as my major. Another five months, my degree is going to end, but I don't give a sh*t whether continuing studies or start working. I'm so dead! Watching friends of mine, planning, even working part time, I envy, honestly, I envy. Why don't I have a specific interest, or specialty? Yeah, maybe I am low in self-esteem, I'm good at nothing... and blah blah blah... I just couldn't make up my mind! I hope there is more time for me, but, all of us know time flew faster than how we think it is.

I'm proud of my friends that they have the ambitious, the target, but sometimes, this really makes me feel tiny. Everytime in the conversation, it shows that I'm clueless, the more they said, the more I feel stupid! I'm angry with myself!!! Hate that feeling, I feel like hiding in somewhere, and hope that I wasn't even born!

I really wish I were them. Ambitious, high self-esteem, believe in themselves and have specialty. Why don't I able to be sportive, and able to start a conversation with anyone? Why don't I have a creative mind?

Maybe I'm too greedy, that everything just won't come to me.

Sinking...

I'm sinking into a bottomless pit,
and will never able to go back,
will never able to be who I used to be.

I have tried,
but it is useless,
and I couldn't resist.

My life will never be the same.