Shopping for shoes ^^

Bought 3 shoes and a belt with mom yesterday.
Haha.

Silver colour high heels.
Love it.^^

Red Wedges that I wanted to buy long time ago.
=)

And a Nike Sports Shoe.

*****

It will soon come to an end

3 more working days...
then, I'll be back to my uni life.
I miss uni life...
a lot! More than you can imagine.
At least, uni life is just all about assignments and grades,
but in working,
communications, responsibilities, relationships... etc.
make me sick.
Not that I want to run away from responsibilities or what,
it's just that working in the real world is really different than what we used to imagine.
Yea... in short, I am even confused and lost than ever before.
Is all this what I really want for the rest of my life?
I always know that the real world is cruel and blablabla...
but this? Is way so far from my imagination,
or maybe, I'm not ready to face the real world out there.

Given a wrong evaluation form to my supervisors.
Haiz...
What a careless me.
I've always know that this is my weakness,
but you know what?
My weakness truly shows in my intern.
Forgetful, careless, panic...
I hate that feeling.
I am not expecting flying colours for the intern,
just not too bad to bring down my CGPA.
Honestly,
I will not have a real good grade if I were evaluating myself too.
I'm not doing my best,
and not trying my best sometimes.
Yea... how sad.
In fact, I really not interested to the job I did as what I thought.
Maybe because that was not I was imagine,
or maybe too many things that are not related to the studies we did.
So, most of the things I do is not theoretical enough that I can write in the report.
How sad.
And also a difficulty for me to write the final report.

Memorizing... which I am also weak at.
Too bad.
That is a media criteria,
which proves that I don't have the criteria,
and I am lost.
So lost.


Till then pals.

明明累了,为何还要勉强?

说的是我这几天的心情。
明明在公司做工作的很累，
却假装没事。
天晓得我多怕数字，
多讨厌数字，
多不擅长数字。
算了吧！
反正两个星期后，
就要离开了。

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对你的一切忍无可忍了。
态度、心态、甚至那不屑的表情。
你又回来了。
曾经的改变算什么？
天晓得那时我鼓起了多大的勇气告诉你？
结果也只是变了一阵子，
现在什么都回来了！
你不反省，
很难要求别人会体谅你。
说过一次的话，
我不会再说第二次，
我也不可能永远待在你身边提醒你，
该反省、该改变的，
你要自己去想。
不要要求大家都迁就你、忍耐你。
到大家都忍无可忍的时候，
不要怪我当初没提醒。
只是，你没把我们的提醒当一回事。

别人对你好是因为他们当你是朋友。
但请别把这当成理所当然。
这世上，没那么多的理所当然。
别人也只是不想把场面搞僵，
所以对你百般依顺。
这不是理所当然！
对你好是因为你是朋友，
但你也得顾及别人的感受！
不是只有你才会心情不好、身体不舒服。。。
大家都会！
为什么你要秀出你的扑克牌脸？
大家心情不好、或很累时却只是静静的？
大家求得也只是开心、快乐！
你却每次搞到大家很尴尬。

不是我们每次很低级，
只是开心嘛。。。
出来就要开心，
而不是不屑那些冷笑话。

虽然我曾经也像你一样，
有什么事都写在脸上。
（虽然现在有时也会）
我也明白，
你只是忠于做自己。
但我们大家都是。
这每一部分都是我们原本的个性。
若每天都要装那也是很累的，
所以你可不可以也迁就我们，
让我们当一下子得自己？
不要泼冷水？

有时我也在想，
对你，
我是不是太苛刻了？
就像以前别人对我那样。
你给了大家很大的压力。。。
或许，或许，
是我再找你麻烦。
若你这么觉得，
我跟你道歉。

不否认你对朋友都很好，
这是你的优点，
是我这神经粗的人无法达到的。
你的细心我看得到。
但若再能改变你一点的态度，
会更好。
只是，这些话，
我无法、也不想再对你说第二遍。

过了一段时间，
我们都会离开彼此，
过着截然不同的生活。
那时你就会知道，
自己有多么渺小，
现实会让你改变的。

我永远祝福你。