Finally EXPLODED!!!

Yes, my anger...
I always said that I don't want to be a teacher,
one of the reason is that I have bad temper,
and especially lack of patience.

During the month, I've been enduring with the kids emo and nonsense.
OK, sometimes of course they are cute, and most of the time they really are,
just that, when it comes to me, I'm the only teacher that they are dare to bully.
And today is even worst!!!

There are certain reasons:
1. I have problem having a quality sleep, and feel sleepy since yesterday
2. It's hazy here, the air makes me so uncomfortable, especially throat
3. Some thing's wrong with my nose, I can't really smell things
4. There's 2 kids continuously crying for the whole morning, and my mind is in a tumult.

Then, during tuition, the 7 kids talking here and there, walking here and there, running here and there, jumping here and there.... Totally ignoring my words and if you were me, will you yell at them? Whatever your answer is, I did YELL at them. And made a kid stand at the corner looking at the wall.

Yup, I'm really really angry, and I repeated the rules I told them the first day I officially take over the class. OK, one of them is this "When doing homework, absolute silence is required". But they are always talking and complaining a lot!! It's way more than a lot, it's like every second, no kidding!

My problem included that THEY ARE NOT AFFRAID OF ME! So, they don't have discipline. Hey, people, am I so friendly? I don't think so. Am I so easy to be bullied? No, not when I'm in high school and uni, but why now??

ARRGGHH!!! Kids.... are both angels and devils.

I'm so going to see when is the next explosion of my anger. Hopefully there will not be one... really. I feel sorry and guilty yelling at kids, they doesn't know much yet in this world right? They are still innocent and naive, but sometimes devil-ly lack of discipline.

The good thing is, I reallize that I'm not that impatient, you see. A month.... I thought the second week I'll be killing someone already, but nop, till today, four weeks....

ON FIRE!

First of all, my blog seems dead... no new post, no replies... and that is B.A.D.!

OK, back to the topic, on fire! Yea... Me...

I'm so frustrated that I have to book the air ticket again and again...

irritatingly(is there a word like this? but, whatever) annoying!

Not their fault but my dad's card. So... no offensive. Just want to express my feeling...

Haha...

On the other hand, my life's good here, working at the kindergarden,

and it gets better and better.

But I started to feel that my throat is going to explode anytime,

finally there's a day for me.

(As those who knows me since well, you know that even I sing for hours, that's no way it happens. Even when cheering, it doesn't happened too.)

I'm suffering insomnia yesterday for no reason,

and it kills me today...

I feel exhausted, but in the morning, I feel that I'm more hyper than I ever did... LOL

but what the heck.

I need to sleep! And I can sleep in the next second... seriously...

Oh yeah! I moved out from SS2 last weekend.

And I don't even feel anything.

Weird.

But surely my dear friends, I'm going to miss yall much!!! Really much!!!

Hopefully I'll have time to meet yall soon~!

OK, that's for now, I think that my blog will be dead for another 1 week...

Hehe *blush*

Feels like S*IT!

Yea... really feels like shit today... especially TODAY!

When Lynn and I are on the way to Kinderworld,
a huge lorry almost bang on us...

When we reach school,
we are being inform that the supervisor's car has broke down,
so that she could not make it today.

When teaching my kids (2-3 years old),
they lost control...
climbing chairs, walking here and there...

When tuitioning (5-6 years old),
the kids are noisy, and like monkey jumping here and there,
and two of them was really slow...
one is talkative, and one is always being distracted by the others.

When it comes to the nap time,
the kids (daycare kids) don't listen to me,
keep playing and talking...
the worst is... I'm already tired and really wants to sleep!

When comes to the TV time,
boys are not interested in singing and dancing...
and girls are not interested in Tom and Jerry...
Then they are busy talking...

Why do kids have to be so different than yesterday?
They are so fine yesterday!!
Is it because of today is Tuesday??
The day that is far far away from the weekend?
Or just because the supervisor is not around??

Oh god, please don't let this happen anymore,
I can't stand it,
and I really feel like S*IT!
and boxing the kids...
*Cries*

Finally back to my blog world...

Well, it's not too long I left, but I feel so... Hahaha!

Almost two weeks of kindergarden "teacher" life, I feel like dying...
not because of the children, but more to the long working hour,
it's kind of hard to get used to it.

Here's the schedule of my day... the childrens' holiday schedule...

6.00 am - Wake up (Bath, breakfast, and some reading while waiting)
7.15 am - Go out from my aunt's home
8.00 am - Start listening to the childrens' reading
9.30 am - Snack time
10.00 am - Children's outdoor time (The children always have a lot of complaining like "Teacher... you see whoever said/do that to me/whoever..." It'll never end...)
10.30 am - Circle time (Seriously walking on a circle, and that is kinda cool, haha! And sing songs)
11.00 am - Arts and Craft
11.45 am - Lunch (Disaster! Children just don't like to eat as much as the like to play, and they are so picky... and imagine the food are all around, and all over themselves. Hmm....)
12.30 pm - Bath
1.00 pm - Free Time (Playing toys)
1.30 pm - Nap time for children (I'll look at them from 3-4pm, and it always makes me sleepy)
4.30 pm - Tea time
5.00 pm - Outdoor/Toys (Depends on the weather, especially it's so hazy nowadays)
5.30 pm - Educational TV (Sometimes some classic cartoon like Tom and Jerry, and yesterday was the best, Popeye. Can you imagine, that I have not watched that for zillion years, haha!)
7.00 pm - Dinner and back to aunt's house (If I'm allowed, sometimes the parents just leave their children here till 8.30pm - it's the latest I've been waiting for)

Honestly, I'm not those kind that have unlimited patience and not the kind whose ambition is teaching, all the time - NO and NEVER, but believe it or not, now I do consider. Just that this is not my interest yet, I'm always still feeling weird here, and unhappy about some children that does not obey that much (I mean, I do understand that there is no perfert obedience, but at least some disipline, that when you talk, you feel that you are being respected. Well, now, I still do not feel that, maybe because of experience is needed?).

Yet, there are cute childrens that you will accidentally love them more than the others (at least for me, LOL, this is bad anyway, don't learn, I'm trying to keep that unnoticed, hehe). I have to admit that I like children, and I was a KING OF THE CHILDREN. Haha... Just because of that, I think I'm too nice to the children here, sometimes, I'm just not that powerful as the other teacher, and I feel like I'm a BIG CHILD teaching a bunch of SMALL KIDS. That is definitely a bad bad thing, which I would like to play darts, dough, toys with them (Laugh, never mind). But what you can't understand is that, children nowadays unlike how we used to be. I have a kid that speak really mature (Imagine a 6-year-old boy said "My daddy said as a human we have to XXX..." and much much more...), I think that is sad, well, kids should be naive, and even childish, and only now he can do that (I do not mean that we can't be naive now, but childish?? Imagine me saying, "Teacher, he bully me~!" and the cry. *roll eyes* that is disgusting!) But this fits to the children right? Even when sometimes you don't like them to do that much often, but you have to admit that, sometimes it's cute.

What I've learned here? Deal with kids. Talk childish (OK, maybe sometimes not). Be energetic (when you see them, "whatever" when you don't). Soft but firm (Yeah, I know what I'm saying).